you just have to keep going

you just have to keep going

For a while, life became very scary for me and I didn't hide it within my small social circle. Some days were good, while other days, I would obsess over decisions I had made years ago - questioning where I had gone wrong that led me to various  . . .
Vulnerability

Vulnerability

I was raised to put my head down and soldier on during tough times and was told never to be vulnerable because being so meant I was weak. It's hard to say whether these were intended life lessons, but deep down, that is what I interpreted the messages  . . .
My Life with DID – Part 2

My Life with DID – Part 2

Welcome to the second part of my post about DID. So, let's talk about the alters. Most people with DID have a name for their system (this means the primary + alters) - I don't have a name for my system. I don't think I'll ever have a  . . .
My Life with DID – Part 1

My Life with DID – Part 1

It's been ages since I updated my blog. Since the last post, I've grown older, wiser (I think) and a pandemic had occurred. Every country is in lockdown and while it's something new for most people I know, it isn't for me. The only thing I can be  . . .

The best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.

Hellen Keller
Part Two

Part Two

At least that’s the last part for me. But, for everyone else it’s just the beginning. I realised I've successfully transferred my pain and anguish onto all of those who love me. The last people I ever wanted to hurt, but at the time, I couldn’t think clearly  . . .
Part One

Part One

I never posted much on mental health day or awareness week, because I believe mental health disorders/issues need to be talked about every day. It's uncomfortable for a lot of people, but it's a much needed conversation to have amongst family and friends, coworkers, even strangers. A few  . . .
Falling Back In Love With Myself

Falling Back In Love With Myself

For a long while, my life was about aggressively working towards elevating myself - a high position in an International company (got it, hated it), casual relationships (fun, but felt alone at the end of the day), a beautiful apartment (comfy but it wasn't home, if that makes  . . .
Childfree by Choice

Childfree by Choice

I'm turning 39 this year, unmarried, and obvs no children. Every year, I've a few married friends and relatives asking me (ALWAYS from women) - "When are you getting married?" "Don't you want to start a family?" "You're not a woman until you have a baby or two."  . . .
Don’t Let Your Past or Trauma Define You

Don’t Let Your Past or Trauma Define You

The things that hurt you, that caused you pain don't define you. Nothing that broke you, caused you the most intense damage, deserves the right to define who you are. They are things that happened to you, that evolved you as a person that changed you, but they  . . .
Conversations with My Alters

Conversations with My Alters

I have hardened for a reason. There is pain inside. It hurts to let you in. I’m scared of being seen. Yet I long for you to see me. I need to know I’m safe. I need to feel your love. I’ll never let you hurt me again!  . . .
Seek Validation within Yourself

Seek Validation within Yourself

Most of us carry so many amazing dreams within ourselves. Dreams that can positively change many lives. Dreams that can make us feel alive and vibrant. Dreams for which we were born. In recent years, I realise no matter where we are right now in our lives, we  . . .