My Life with DID – Part 1

My Life with DID – Part 1

It's been ages since I updated my blog. Since the last post, I've grown older, wiser (I think) and a pandemic had occurred. Every country is in lockdown and while it's something new for most people I know, it isn't for me. The only thing I can be  . . .
Part Two

Part Two

At least that’s the last part for me. But, for everyone else it’s just the beginning. I realised I've successfully transferred my pain and anguish onto all of those who love me. The last people I ever wanted to hurt, but at the time, I couldn’t think clearly  . . .
Part One

Part One

I never posted much on mental health day or awareness week, because I believe mental health disorders/issues need to be talked about every day. It's uncomfortable for a lot of people, but it's a much needed conversation to have amongst family and friends, coworkers, even strangers. A few  . . .
Falling Back In Love With Myself

Falling Back In Love With Myself

For a long while, my life was about aggressively working towards elevating myself - a high position in an International company (got it, hated it), casual relationships (fun, but felt alone at the end of the day), a beautiful apartment (comfy but it wasn't home, if that makes  . . .
Don’t Let Your Past or Trauma Define You

Don’t Let Your Past or Trauma Define You

The things that hurt you, that caused you pain don't define you. Nothing that broke you, caused you the most intense damage, deserves the right to define who you are. They are things that happened to you, that evolved you as a person that changed you, but they  . . .
Seek Validation within Yourself

Seek Validation within Yourself

Most of us carry so many amazing dreams within ourselves. Dreams that can positively change many lives. Dreams that can make us feel alive and vibrant. Dreams for which we were born. In recent years, I realise no matter where we are right now in our lives, we  . . .
My Birthday Wish

My Birthday Wish

On 19th October, I turned 38. Thirty-fucking-eight. And it felt great! 37 certainly brought me a year of growth beyond my beliefs. The biggest heart break of my life until today was the loss of my mummy. And the biggest blessings are the development of the beautiful relationships  . . .
Codependence Behaviour (No more!)

Codependence Behaviour (No more!)

All my life, I've always felt as if I need to give people what they want and need without thinking about or putting myself first. Now, I remember clearly the day I revealed my truth - out through the locked up, suppressed little voice hidden deep down within.  . . .
Fear is My Motivation

Fear is My Motivation

Wanna know what I can't seem to overcome? My fear of day-to-day life. My story begins as a young girl. Always anxious, always afraid of the "what ifs". I was so anxious every second of the day even before I knew what ‘anxiety’ was or that the feeling  . . .
Introduction to My Alters

Introduction to My Alters

Something I've always wanted to write about but been avoiding: #1- Survivor Girl. She's 7. Despite her age, she's a fighter and survivor. What did she survive? A lot. She's sassy, funny, and smart. She doesn't easily trust people. She loves to come out and play. She's very  . . .
A Dream with A Lesson

A Dream with A Lesson

I had a dream. I stood alone in what had been my childhood bedroom - staring at the dresser with a familiar discomfort. My fingers clutched at the handle of the third drawer from the top and pulled hard, straining from the weight of its contents. I reached  . . .
29 Years

29 Years

29 years of suppressing my trauma. 29 years of not understanding why the fuck I am the way I am. 29 years of not having my opinions be heard. 29 years of not knowing what's healthy, what isn't. 29 years of hurt, betrayal, pain, suffering. 29 years of  . . .