On 19th October, I turned 38. Thirty-fucking-eight. And it felt great!

37 certainly brought me a year of growth beyond my beliefs. The biggest heart break of my life until today was the loss of my mummy. And the biggest blessings are the development of the beautiful relationships I have today.

I’m richer and wiser for all that the years have brought me, particularly in the last 2 years I’ve been here in Australia. Today, I leave behind the challenges and take with me the lessons learnt.

Thank you to those who have been by my side through the laughs and the tears.

As messages of love and memories flow through, I’m overwhelmed with emotions.

I’m so grateful this year – I found a community that accepted me as who I am and has shown me lots of love and compassion. Every time I’m with them, they make me feel alive with buzzing energy and emotion.

A special thank you to Morgan for his never-ending love, encouragement and support. For constantly kicking my arse. He’s been there for me more than my family ever has. He’s truly the best friend anyone could ask for.

My dearest ones, if I were to ask for something on any day of the year, on my birthday the only thing I ask of you is this:

Live the life that you were called to live. If not for yourself, then do it for the sake of your loved ones and the Higher Power (or whatever it is that you believe in) that created all that is and gifted you this chance to experience what it is to be human. And to learn from all that being human encompasses.

Please, truly live each day to its fullest degree. I learned to do this when my mum passed away, and then, I just.. stopped. But, now I truly want to live my day as it is my last.

Choose to live your life, with fear safely in the passenger seat, ONLY chiming in to help steer you away from the imminent danger that would absolutely lead to sudden death.

Please, choose forgiveness.
Choose compassion.
Choose love.
Choose grace.
Over and over and over again.

Today, I decide not to make a wish when I blow out the candles. Instead, I’ll make a promise (and you guys can kick my arse if I don’t keep them!):

I promise to fall to my knees and open my heart in total humility, deep gratitude and utter celebration.
I promise to do this every single day.
Because each one is precious.

I promise I will not take this gift of the present for granted. I promise to do my best to forgive myself for holding on so tightly to the past (sometimes it’s hard not to let go). I promise to breathe compassion into my tender, raw heart and I promise to stand for and see THAT love in every person that I encounter every day.

I promise to try again when I mess up, judge and self-loathe when I realise I’m still doing it. Choose GRACE. Again and again.

I promise to absorb the sun (even the rain, because it rains a lot here in Katoomba), breathe in the fresh air and soak in the moment. Every FUCKING DAY.
I promise to love with all of my heart and soul.

Thank you, everyone, for you have enriched my life beyond measure!

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