It’s been ages since I updated my blog. Since the last post, I’ve grown older, wiser (I think) and a pandemic had occurred. Every country is in lockdown and while it’s something new for most people I know, it isn’t for me. The only thing I can be thankful for during the lockdown is that I’ve had more time to focus and work on myself, that also means getting to know myself better. In this post, I’m writing about one of my diagnosis – Dissociative Identity Disorder (previously known as Multiple Personality Disorder), because there are readers and friends that want to understand what DID is and like for me.

The diagnosis helped me understand what I thought to be something odd/different about me. It provided a reason for my behaviour and gave me something to work with/on. It is when you know what the issue is that you can work on a solution.

Please keep in mind that I’m only speaking from my POV of what DID is.

DID contains varying levels of awareness of alters/voices. Instead of voices, I chose to call them alters, because these alters have their own preferences in terms of food, gender, beverages, books, music genres, and many more. They’re like you and me, the difference is they live inside me and in their own inner-worlds.

Before I was diagnosed, I only had mild awareness of my alters. My partner knew I had DID, way before I was diagnosed, and would point out things I said or did, that I didn’t remember.

WebMD and other sites state that DID is someone with two or more distinct personality states. When I came out to my friends about DID, only a few were interested enough to ask these questions:
​”What are these personalities or alters? And what does it feel like?”

For someone who doesn’t live with DID, I imagine it’s highly confusing and even disbelieving, and I’ve learned to not take offense to those who think it’s a made up disorder. Believe me, I’ve met many who think so.

To be continued…

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